Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Dreaming. Done. When?

When dreaming is done, when dreaming is done
( ... ) dreaming. Done.
When dreaming is done I am still dreaming. There is always more.



Write whose name is composed of tender letters
lay it under the moon during a whole cycle
Kiss your hands and fingers, thinking of his letters
full moist lip. do it on a daily basis.
one letter, two letters, three letters, four letters, five,
six letters.
during that whole cycle.

Save his name in pink envelope
leave it under your pillow
lucid dreams of you making love to his letters
as they make love to you.
Dream for another full cycle.

Make up a chant and touch yourself
mimic the way you would touch him,
if he'd let you

I invest my love on the Power of Pink
Send me to my love and in return of his receiving
I pay in full form the letter 'I'. 
...

Nonesense! Nonesense! I make no sense!

When dreaming is done, when dreaming is done
( ... ) dreaming. Done.
When dreaming is done I still lay in my bed. Eyes open.
I cannot be sure of my eyes.
I cannot be sure of the 'I'.
And for hell I cannot trust this chants, this feelings, this dreams.
I cannot trust your love.
I cannot trust you denying me.
When will you take me?

When dreaming is done, when dreaming is done
( ... ) dreaming. Done.
When dreaming is - NOTHING IS DONE if it was dreaming.
if you sometimes mix up dreams and reality, then reality isn't done either!
When the deed is done, when the deed is done
When will you have me?

Fuck the moderns and they're modern love
Fuck individuality
Fuck passions
Fuck deciding between goals or other sort of goals
Fuck the type of feminism that dictates
>< I cannot    just think    of being    loved by you.><

I do. I do. I do!
I do. I do. I do!
I reject the I.
Help me erase my letters 
by making them something much sweeter. 
I reject the I.
I reject the eye.
I reject the dream.
Is this why you must reject me?

Thorns turns and fuck

Thorns!
Child's kiss gone
'Kuss, well it's gone
They walk me home through the city's black dust.
Thick petroleum is the water that feeds the flowers
Every step I take, there
luscious velvetine oath Covered In Thorns.

Oh how they prick the soles in me!
So I seat in the gravel next to my miserable friends
we eat our noodles
we get fatter hoping we'd get wiser
as we exchange shit for shit.

A wife beater set up cactis in my window,
hoping someday they'd give flowers
I don't water them
they're thorn-screwed bodies
survive,strive,survive
when you rise, fuck that, thorn ladder rising
Diagonal/lateral/language shit
Fuck my love.
Fuck it up and
get hurt. Fuck it up.

Thursday, April 09, 2015

wreck less

wreck less beauty that sparks
I cannot spare you
my blood is my kiss
my skin longs for your yearning.

Which of my scars screams your name?  None.
It is in my eyes where I learned to love you.  It is in my brain,
it thinks it knows what is behind every of your gestures.
It is in my ears which you've enamoured taking them each time  to a new and better adventure!
My hands must hold you and create words/worlds that portray  you.

I am young and I bleed
irregular cycles
there is no way on telling time
unless the time is now.

Don't trust my word
Trust my writing.
wreck less (silent)  I'm fading.
Came with a gift and a purpose
but for me it is idle play
if I can't be your idol.

Scorn, wretched and reckless
when there is no beauty that sparks.
I want to be your mirror.

Her youth is no promise
Her fixed solitude is what's tantalizing.
She finds success in loving.

and when it stops,  it stops.
Blood keeps on dripping
and hair will keep on growing.